~The Red Menace~

Radical Feminist, Anarcha-Socialist, Lezbian Queer Dyke Cunt Lover, Secular Humanist, Activist Social Change Agent, Mestiza-Classed, Community Builder, RED MENACE!!


I'm a Public Leader, Community Organizer, and Community Builder. And I'm also an Anarcha-Socialist who fights to eliminate capitalism and other political, social, and economic hierarchies to create a society without institutions where all people have equal access to knowledge and production, emphasizes trade unions and decentralized methods of direct democracy, and finds any institutional form to be abusive. And I'm a Radical Feminist who believes the cause of women's oppression to be within patriarchy and the cause of all oppression to be in the mimicked hierarchical structures such as capitalism and amerikkkanism and globalism and colonialism and imperialism and jesusgodism which means society needs to be recreated and not changed cuz change just rearranges the same shit in a different order. And I'm a Secular Humanist who believes we got ourselves into this mess and can only rely on ourselves to get the hell out. And I'm Mestiza-Classed: the educated working-class wonder! And a Lezbian Queer Dyke Cunt Lover. An active activist social change agent iconoclastic catalyst. A VOICE with capital letters that stand tall and out and above and are heard and seen...always an outspoken mouth on the pretty face of the strong head of an independent woman. I'm an individual within the collective. And a Revolution! I'm a ReVoLuTiOn! and revolutionizer. A riotous redhead. THE Red Menace!





Sunday, April 19, 2009

towards a complete stream of consciousness: Marriage Equality in Iowa




8:40
8:40
8:40

“Iowa Supreme Court Says Same-Sex Marriage OK”. OK. OK. OK.

IT PASSED!!!!!! Unanimously

7
0
7 – 0
7...

UNANIMOUSLY!!!

I’m an EQUAL citizen with EQUAL rights!!!

Unanimously...

Shock.
Wide-eyed.
I’m high above the world, watching – not really a part of it. I’m watching the news leak out into the world hitting everyone simultaneously and gathering them together in solidarity. Though I feel the solidarity – I feel the pull to the gathering of people – I am still somehow watching it, seeing the arms around me rather than feeling the collective embrace.
Want to feel...

Hit.
Tears, streaming down, tears. .
Stop. Start.
Hysterics. Dry-eyed.
Up. Down.
All around,
Inside. Outside.
High tide. Low tide.

Complete high.

Whole new world. Beautiful morning. Beautiful moment. Beautiful future.

So much energy – trapped inside – no where to go but the internet, Microsoft Word, cell phone. Wanna run. Wanna scream. Wanna cry. Wanna stop crying. Wanna work - get shit done. Wanna puddle stomp. Wanna revel in the sun. Wanna talk – about the struggle, about the strife, the families, the lives. Wanna hug. Wanna kiss. Wanna make-out...with a lady. Wanna have sex with a woman stranger on the front steps of the State House, unapologetically. Wanna get drunk, so incredibly drunk. Wanna hoist a rainbow flag a-top the Old Capitol; this is my state! Wanna let go – be free – dare to be free. All I can do is write...

It’s a high. I am high. I’m floating. I’m meshing. I’m heavy. I’m light. Scattered. Immobile. Itching. Striving. Happy. Rosy. Thrilled. Blissful. Joyful. Tickled-Pink!!! I’m gay – oh so GAY!!!

And Red. So very red. Red with courage – bold, fighting, courage.
Orange with openness, receptiveness, possibility – Oh the possibilities!
The challenge of yellow overcome,
Bleed to green with growth, solidarity, collectivity – power. energy. POWER! ENERGY!
And I – the blue pessimist – see solidarity. Miles...
And we – the people – are purple.
Love, together, peace, together, friends, together, family, together
TOGETHER...

Overwhelmed.
Overwhelmed.
Overwhelmed.
Energized.

She calls me, my mom, she finally calls me. I want to cry, but the roller-coaster isn’t at the top. I want her to hold me, but she is too far away. But she is holding me. She’s holding me tight as she displays her pride to the world: blogging, facebooking, emailing, phoning. It’s that coming out moment, again, all over again...
together
with love
mother and lesbian daughter
mother and daughter
loving mother and loving daughter
Generations of Change...

So much to do – Time stand still – let me fly
~as a flag~
Take a moment to celebrate
with community
-the community-
and every rainbow I own...

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